nollama

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 13:04:20 GMT

So Kevin opened his fat mouth, and I want to punch him.

".....a woman who - judging from her belly - had to be at least 7 or 8 months pregnant. And she was smoking. Like no worries.

People like this shouldn't even be able to have kids."

Ummm... I am a smoker. And what exactly does he want me to do with this insult.

*grip continues* So people seem to think that they can make blanket statments, and that if I fall into that blanket I am not allowed to be offended. What kind of crazy bull shit is that. I can be offended at whatever I damn well please. ANd if you piss me off I am going to tell you. THen every one else wants to ump in and defend their fellow sister/brother, and tell me to calm down. Well I'm sorry I am tired of the fucking sorority club.

I get spanked all over the god damn boards, and I have the most unlikely of champions, every once in a while. And sure I appreciate it. And they will only cross lines whenever some one was really out of place.
Now I am not a big fan of Mugen's, but the board does't give him a chance to breathe. I get really tired of watching the Mungen slap fest too. Right now I am just pissy about almost all of that site.

So I count to ten, and then refrain from fanasizing about ways to destroy Kevin in my mind.... 1..2..3.4..5.6...7...8...9.....10. Not working!!!!

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 14:46:35 GMT

So, I figured I would share with you all the feeling cycle I have been on over the last few months. About a year ago I found out that I had done some pretty interesting damage to my reproduction area, and friends. The details of this are rather embarising and grusome, so I won't talk specifics. Lets just say that as a result I need to have my uterus removed, I need to have reconstructive surgery on on some muscle walls, and some plastic surgery to correct some scar tissue. I was told if I wanted to have more kids I would need to do it soon.

After much consideration, and discussions with my husband, we decided that we were ready to call it quits, let me get all my problems fixed, and move on with our lives. This was a very emotional, and important time for me. I finally accepted that there would be no more children in our home. My husband knew that if I did this, that we would likely addopt in a couple of years, and he was accepting. Every thing was falling neatly in place.

Some time in January I found out that we were going to be having another baby. It went from shock, to acceptance, to great what the hell are we going to do now!

I already accepted that I wasn't going to have more children. I had come to terms with it. I was allowed to dream of the day my kids were out of the house. ANd getting them off to school. Now I have to start that all over.

Please don't misinterpret. This baby is celebrated, it's the baby we shouldn't have. I guess it makes up my mind for me. I know that there will be no more babies after this one period.

I do have a certain amount of resentment for my situation, but it isn't geared at the baby itself. I resent the fact I need to stay home 3 extra years, when I was three years away from a little more independence.

I am OK with being pregnant. We will welcome this baby into our family, again its an unplanned, but not unwanted pregnacy. I don't know what I hope to achieve by telling all of you... I guess it just feels good to get it off my chest.

Thanks for listening!

Please answer

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 14:02:28 GMT

I have always wanted to know what people think is the meaning of life.

Any thoughts people?

So I have pondered this for quite some time. What if the point if life is to have a pointless existence. I mean really live your life for today, fuck tommorow it might not come anyways. I think it is always thinking about what I want to be when I grow up. Or Where I want to be 10-20-30 years down the road. So far nothing has ever gone according to my master plans. So I am starting to think it is a waste to time money, effort, and energy on my part.

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 17:49:24 GMT

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I don't get this Live journal crap!

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 20:09:24 GMT

I will admit that I am used to myspace. I like being able to click a little buton that says send message, or add to friends (I think I found that one here...) Anyways I would really appreciate if some one would be my little tour guide.